Hey maybe I'll start to sleep better? Because really the weirdest things keep me up at night. I mean weird like tonight, I started thinking about famous people and I'm not talking movie stars I'm talking Historical figures, yes we all know what Kennedy was like as a president but what was he like as a baby or lets even go further back in history, what was Rasputin or Caesar like at say 5? I mean you know they were five at one time they had to have been. But did something happen to them that made them historical figures? and I'm not talking about a blurt in a history book these are people who have whole books written about them. Who's lap did they sit on when they needed a cuddle? when did they take there first step? what was there first word?
I also have little story's that I either remember or they are so vivid that I think they are memories from childhood but when I've asked my family about them they don't know what I'm talking about.Sometimes I think, they think I'm a lier when I say these things or I'm telling stories but I'm not I really do feel like some of these things have happened to me but that is my family and well we'll go there another day because I could go on forever about them.
Oh I know you are probably thinking I'm a nut by now, I'm not, I know exactly where I stand, I have what I think is a pretty good grasp on reality though most people just think I'm eccentric, maybe I am I don't know, what makes a person eccentric? That they aren't "normal" but I never have wanted to be "normal". Normal is no fun and boring and I never understood people who wanted to be "normal". Great is not normal. and though I doubt I will ever have a chapter in a history book written about me and I definitely don't want to be in a tabloid, a movie or even a sitcom because I don't want to be famous there is a difference between famous and Great I mean there are Great people who are famous but there are also famous people who aren't Great and there are Great people who will never be famous and that I think is what I would like to aim for. I at 32 almost 33 just haven't figured out what to be Great at and there is my Conundrum for tonight or if you must this morning.
